Thursday, February 9, 2012

every day ordinary

"Every day ordinary"... I've had this phrase €€€€€and surrounding thoughts in my mind all day...every day...the last few days. Let me explain... Andrew and I have put our house up for sale. It has been on the market all of two weeks and today we had our first showing. It is a 120+ year old investment property with three apartments. We currently live in the very large two bedroom apartment. Now...rewind...a little back story for you... Andrew bought this property well before 1. we were married 2. we were even an "us." He bought it in the day that he thought he wouldn't ever be married and was living in the small one bedroom apartment..."bachin'" it up. Through a series of well...a lot of changes...some controlled...some out of our control... just 8 months into our marriage we decided it was best to move into the house... as the two bedroom apartment had become vacant. When we first came into the apartment... I could not believe this was where we were 1. going to live 2. going to raise our baby who was due to be born in June. I saw every imperfection, every thing that needed fixed, every thing that I disliked and I was not happy. I picked it apart room by room...light fixture by light fixture...and so on. At the beginning, I'd ask Andrew constantly, "Can we please replace this? or Can you please fix this?" ...Somewhere along the way (perhaps it was just time or having a baby...or a combination) all of those "things" didn't bother me as much. They weren't the "eye sores" that they once were. Just a part of my every day ordinary life. Until recently...as we've put the house on the market...suddenly I am once again very aware of every imperfection, every thing that needs to be fixed, and every detail that needs changed. I'm reminded that this is often how life is...both in the natural €and the spiritual. There are moments in life when we are bogged down with the weight of our "every day ordinary"...obsessed with it really...then Father time comes along...and perspective begins to change... or in the spiritual...we've been challenged to deal with "x"...we work away...pray away...etc. and it may feel like it will never be over...that there will never be freedom or victory...or peace... and then Father God comes along...reassures us...and we continue on with our "every day ordinary" lives better than we were before because we aren't consumed with all the "stuff" and are learning that in the end most of it doesn't matter anyway. Philippians 4:11 "...For I have learned in whatever state I am, to be content..."

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