Bone Weary Tired

I'm not sure I fully understood the phrase, "bone weary tired" until becoming a mom.


But today, that's me.


Bone. Weary. Tired.


To my very core.


Why? What causes such weariness?


Our kids. Our precious gifts. Life. The loss of life.


There are hard days. I'm sure even harder days to come.


Right now, it feels like we are in the trenches.


Nothing supremely out of the ordinary I suppose for us.


It's a battle we've been in for over a year now.


Countless tears & even more prayers.


"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." Matthew 11:28


I cling tightly to this verse & have found it to be proven through & through. I'm so thankful that God's word is real & a firm foundation to plant my feet.


This week has been heart breaking. Watching our Hope struggle again. Trips to doctors. Awaiting tests results. More medicine to try.


But I've felt the prayers of the saints. Those who are believing with us that Hope will be healed. In the moments when my faith wanes & I begin to doubt, I get a text or a call or someone stopping by to pray & encourage us.


And I breathe. A sigh. His peace & comfort renewing. Bringing hope. Restoring again.


The nights. They are long.
But the coffee is strong.
And God is stronger.
I'm thankful.


So, momma, you're bone weary tired...Sister...Friend... Let Him give you rest. Reach out. Let the prayers & hopes of others help carry you through this time. You don't have to be strong or have all the right answers. Be real. You don't have to wear a mask. Just rest in His unfailing promise & word & brew that 3rd or 4th or 5th cup of coffee. I won't judge.

faithfulness

faithfulness.
what a word.
full of indescribable emotion.


Wikipedia gives this definition: Faithfulness is the concept of unfailingly remaining loyal to someone or something and putting that loyalty into consistent practice, regardless of extenuating circumstances.


unfailingly remaining loyal...
putting that loyalty into consistent practice...
regardless...


This morning during worship service at church, I was feeling pressed to my very core about the portrait of my faithfulness to the Lord. Not that we have to "prove" anything to Him but as His bride...His beloved... What does my faithfulness to Him look like?


My loyalty to the Lord in every season...Every trial...Every tragedy...Every triumph.... Does my life reflect that of a faithful bride? Does it continually point people back to Him? Or are there other "lovers"...Other things that deter my loyalty to Christ?


Do my "extenuating circumstances" cause my faithfulness to Christ to grow? Or do I allow them to pull me away & question His goodness?


He is faithful.
Always.
Every situation.
He never leaves.
He never forsakes.
He is not swayed by emotion.
He is.
The Rock I'm standing on.
The Hope I'm hanging on.
The Truth I'm living on.


Every season.
Let it be said of me...


She remained faithful.
She spoke highly of her King.
Her faith did not waiver.
Her trust in who He was did not falter.


Through it all...
She remained faithful.

shifting sand

shifting sand
ever changing world
ever changing you
ever changing me


the only certainty
Him
Christ
the One who came
because of you
because of me


to bind up our brokenness
heal every wound
rebuild the ruins


on Him
a sure foundation
solid rock


not deterred by shifting sand
or the change of the wind


He is
completeness
making me
making you
into His likeness


unworthy ones
made worthy
because of who He is




let the sand shift
I have found the One
on whom to build my life
though shaken
I will not fail
my eyes are fixed
on Him