It is what it is

Mom life. House wife. Stay at home mom. What's in a title anyway? Lately, I've honestly been a little edgy & emotional... If I can just be candid for a moment... I know for some this may seem harsh or like I'm ungrateful, I'm not... Just wired up a little differently than other women, I guess. You see... I love my babies. But I didn't pick this life. In a way, I guess it picked me. Neve ever was I the girl that just day dreamed about being a mom & staying home & raising babies. But here I am. And it's no joke. Most days around 5-6pm... I'm just done... The final push to get dinner on the table, babies bathed, ready for bed... Is here and all I can think about is how I'd love a shower & the ability to climb in my bed by 8pm & read or journal or write those long overdue "thinking about you" & "thank you" cards... But that my friends, is a rare occasion. I honestly can't remember the last time I finished a book in its entirety...& to my friends that haven't heard from me in ions... I really do think about you... And promise... Some day we will catch up on life. Right now, life is a little "unpredictably" predictable... Meaning... I don't know what time of day Caden will dump his snack or if/when Hope will actually let me put her down... But at some point it will most likely happen... Life. Funny. The plans we make. That never purpose themselves. I think the Word says something about that... Many are the plans in a mans heart... But the Lord's purposes will prevail. Anyway... I don't think this "thought" really came full circle... Maybe another day...